Barbara Henning is the author of Smoking in the Twilight Bar and Love Makes Thinking Dark (United Artists). Her pamphlets and artist book collaborations include Me and My Dog (Poetry New York), The Passion of Signs (Leave Books), Words and Pictures, How to Read and Write in the Dark and In Between (forthcoming from Spectacular Disease). Her work has recently been published in The World, Poetry International, Paris Review, Lingo, Talisman and Fiction International.
Working Notes
"Tha Kita Thaka" was composed from material I collected in a journal while I was in India last summer. When I stepped off the plane in Bangalore I was turned up side down and around. Dizzy. I discovered that going in a circle — as I often do wherever I am — is in fact a sacred activity, unpatentable and continual.
THA KITA THKA or Postcards from India
Open the door to the Bangalor train station and step amongst hundreds of men and women,
sleeping and resting, wrapped in saris and lunghis. Sitting cross legged, a skinny man
with a turban looks up at me, a giant white colonial lady, obviously rich.
Prakash squares down to sweep the floor with a handheld handmade broom. He hops backwards
bringing the little pile of dirt with him.
From under a red and yellow tent, some men emerge carrying a stretcher covered with flowers
and held high over their shoulders. Elbows and knees our out over the edges.
Across from Jaganmohan temple, the toe anchor on my left sandal breaks and I fund myself
barefoot in India.
My feet are miles long. They walk down the street. The air's full go burning cow dung.
We tiptoe over a cement roof to an old room for urinating and defecating.
tha kita dhi kita tho kita na kita tha kita dhi kita tho kita na kita
Can I help you Madam?
For strength, take Bheema Shakti--it tasted like pumpkin pudding.
Take neem oil in the neem oil in the morning before you practice---it tastes little like motor oil
A small barefoot woman in a dirty blue sari approaches while I'm waiting in line at an e-mail
station. She holds up a tiny baby with a triangular nose and three holes for a face.
To retain the breath is to be alive without one element.
Up the crooked wooden steps in a cement building covered with mold and mud, the women are
cooking.
Odd what a cow must bear, tied to a pile with fifty flies gathering on her nose. Later on when it's
cool, sashaying down the rad, tail twitching
tha kita kita thaka tha kita thakita thaka dhi kita kita thaka tha kita thakita thaka tho kita kita thaka tha kita thakita thaka na kita kita thaka tha kita thakita thaka
.
Guruji shows my body into a backward wheel and then lifts me up, placing our hears beside
each other. He laughs, "Old bodies take time to bend."
The breeze slaps the door shut. I prop it open. A woman, wrapped in a cloth, rests on her side.
The sound of leaves brushing against each other. The horns of rickshaws. Beautiful
breeze full of smoke.
Outside on the roof a mother monkey and her baby stroke each other. Yes, says Mr. Iyengar
there are four types of love.
An old muscular man pills a cart with three huge and heavy sacks on his shoulders. He's
trotting, his dark muscles sweating in the sun.
There are a lot of wooden steps in this house, and some man is carrying away our vacuum
cleaner. The cord is dragging behind him. My daughter runs up and grabs it. I'm right
behind her ready to fight. He looks back at us, turns, takes off his glasses and sets them
on a shelf. He will have this machine. I wake up.
Maria is winding her hair in the doorway.
A swarm of mosquitos hovers over my bed, one buzzing in my ear.
El templo es nuestro cuerpo y yo siempre cargo mi templo.
dhin nana kitathakka dhin na dhin nana kitathakka dhin na
dhin nana kitathakka dhin na dhin nana kitathakka dhin na
.
Carrying of any weapons and/or firearms and explosives (except carrying kirpans by Sikhs) in
the bank is prohibited
Now since major areas of Sera Monastrey are connected with good drinking water, skin and
various other diseases can be avoided.
If you change your environment--even just by adding a smell, a particular incense, the diet
changes, prana changes and the mental state changes.
There are 97,000 bulbs on the Maharaja's palace.
Mysore was the first electric city in Asia.
Two little barefoot boys hang on to the back of a large and overflowing oxen-driven cart of hay
their legs running quickly behind them.
Guruji rolls my curled up body back and forth nine times for the nine months of gestation.
Under the umbrella, this particular area is kept dry.
The Lambadi, a small nomadic tribe in Karnataka, sew mirrors on the fabric to scare off evil
spirits.
After all, if a mirror reflects nothing, what use is it?
If you pay the boys ten rupees, they'll do anything for you.
What I like best is the perverse fact that I can live here so cheaply.
Two little boys on Sayaji Rao Road each put a dirty hand into one of mine.
To live as healthy as you can until you lie down and die is a blessing.
Wake up at dawn and return home at dusk. This way you can out your heart into your work.
If woe are any, we close our eyes and chant "Om Noma Shivaya" one thousand times. If e
are still angry, we begin again counting backwards.
Mix jyothishmati with eight parts of oil and massage your head--a brain-clearer believed to
promote intelligence
I hit my head in the doorway before I sit down. Sadashiva hits my shoulders with a little
hammer.
.
Sari is the traditional dress of Indian women. Samsara is the succession of births and deaths.
Sanskrit is the language of the holy scripture, the veda
dhin nana kita thakha dhinna kitathaka dhinna kitathakha dhinna
dhin nana kita thakha thinna kitathakha dhinna kitathakha dhinna
In Bombay Tiffany, every single customer stares at me as I write in my book.
A money opens the window, scatters my things, eats a cucumber, and drops a bottle of nail
polish onto the street.
.
We zoom around a horse, a cow, a rickshaw, scoot in between crowds of pedestrians, speed
down a mudslick Mysore road and I envision my body curling into a ball before I bounce
down the road.
Yield and Merge.
Viramma from Pondicherry calls her vagina a donut.
The flute has nine holes representing the physical body with nine openings
Yes Madam
Are you all right?
Do you want tea?
Madam, perhaps eighty percent of the people here are happy to have a baby girl.
Purusa is the soul, the lord of the body which is its abode. Pura is a fortress, castle, house, abode,
body. Isa is the master or owner
I am a long pole with ten holes.
A dog comes ups to me and sniffs.
I am afraid to touch him.
I should do something. I should do nothing.
On the way to the temple at 6 am, I pass the dog again. Today he's quietly whimpering and
quivering as he lay in a pile of garbage. An old man rests in a blanket in the stoop
above him.
An enourmous black bird, a crow, I think, swoops down, claws my hair and flies up into a tree. I
scream and the passersby laugh.
An omen. Something is dying in you. Something is born. Oh no, Miktaswami laughs. No the
bird is just playing. He likes your hair.
When you're in your bed you say to yourself, I'm here.
Close your eyes. When you see a red spot, peer into it. When it recedes pull it back.
Place your heel in between your testicles and penis and you clear the channels that are
responsible for bad dreams.
It's like the alphabet. You can write it ABCDEF . . . or you chan change it -- as you like
dhin dhin nana dha thin na na dhin dhin na na dha thin na na
A group of Indian children from another roof watch Andrey of Kiev perform the dance of Shiva.
They dance and roll with laughter.
And the fan in the sky goes round and round.
.
As instructed, I stare into the face of Vishnu
A man points at my rings and shakes his head affirmatively. I shake my head, negatively. Then
he continues on his path, around and around the temple
It was a sign of sorrow not to have a Rangolu drawn outside your door. People think something
inauspicious or tragic is going on. Beggars will not come to that house on such a day.
A group of men and women form a circle
Inside, I offer twelve bananas, a mango, a coconut, yellow flowers, betel leaves, one hundred
rupees, and my lotus seated self.
We turn to the right to avoid the woman who is drawing at the threshold, and smack, my head
engages the window ledge.
We're so startled to see the policeman's stick lash out and hit a little boy whose back is to the
street.
A rickshaw driver tries to charge my twenty rupees. i tell him it's hs karma, not mine and he
laughs. I'm such a fool.
Prana flows helter-skelter within the spinal cord.
To my right a man carries a pan with hot coals,
An old woman pulls up my sleeves.
Under a banana leaf, the sage moves close to me, whispering.
You are not the doer. All this is not here for your benefit.
dha dhin kuta thakha thinikita Dha dhin kuta thakha thinikita
dha dhin kuta thakha thinikita Dha dhin kuta thakha thinikita
.
The problem with you Americans is that you're too clean.
An older Hindu woman on the plane wears dark brown makeup as a shadow around her eyes. I
used to practice pranayama and asanas, but when my husband died, I stopped all that. Out
of sadness? Yes. I'm moving to Queens. This is such a waste, he says, holding up a
pastry in a cellophane bag. Mother Theresa used to collect all this from the airplanes and
feed them to the poor Indian children. I'd just been thinking at she shouldn't eat these
rolls and butter. That's why she's so heavy.
When I wake up the next morning, I take Dorothy for a walk around Tompkins Square
Two Hair Krishna devotees make their morning circles around the elm trees. An old man
scatters peanuts for the squirrels. The elderly Chinese men and women practice Chi
Gong to Chinese music on a boom box. They make circles with the palms of their hands
Some people are still asleep on the park benches and along the fences. A siren. A church
bell. All around, the trees so familiar.
dhin nana kitataka dhinna kitathakha dhinna titathakha dhinna dhin nana
kitathankha thinna kitathakha dhinna ttitathakha dhinna dhin nana kitataka dhinna
kitathakha dhinna kitathakha dhinna dhin nana kitathakha thinna kitathakha dhinna
kitathakha dhinna kitathaka